Final Journal Reflection

            Never before have I done anything remotely similar to keeping a journey journal on a day-to-day basis. The experience of writing my unfiltered thoughts for ten minutes almost everyday truly helped me understand many of the underlying problems in my life. When I say problems, I am referring to every thought or situation that causes even the tiniest amount of stress and detracts from my peace of mind. I noticed that one of the biggest issues I have is the fact that I avoid potentially awkward situations and tend towards my comfort zone where I know nothing bad will happen. In essence, I avoid taking risks for the fear of ending up hurt. Thanks to writing this down everyday, I motivated myself to be more open to situations and people in general, which has helped me a lot in terms of building relationships and strengthening the ones I already have.

            In all honesty, at first, writing in the journal almost everyday felt like a chore that was only in the way of me completing more important and pressing work. Little by little, it started to grow on me like a puppy that destroys everything in it’s wake but later curls up next to you and makes you hate yourself for not being able to get mad at it. The more I became open to the idea of the journal not being a bore, the more my inner thoughts felt clearer and I could truly get a sense of what I needed to fix and how to fix them. Truth be told, towards the end of my entries in the journal I started to feel a sense of nostalgia because I had become sort of accustomed to using it every other day that the thought of leaving it behind seemed a bit sad. Maybe I will continue to write in it even though I don’t need to anymore. That would be interesting.